Johnny Knoxville attended a memorial service for his friend and Jackass co-star Ryan Dunn last Wednesday, but was too emotional to be able to say everything he wanted. So, the actor took to his production company's website to talk about his fallen friend.

First, Knoxville describes everything he loved about Dunn, who was killed in a car accident last Monday:

    "He lived his life wanting to laugh and wanting you to laugh with him. ... He wasn't incapable of seriousness, though. Ryan was a great listener. ... That's why all this is even harder because right now I really need to talk to him but I can't."

Then, Knoxville gets upset as he talks about telling his children that Dunn had died.

    " ... this isn't right, goddamnit. Ryan, I had to go wake up Madison and tell her you were gone. Do you know how hard that was?!! She loved you so much and I know you loved her, so why, buddy? Rocko will never get to know you like she did, nor will my daughter that is coming in October. I cry a lot about that."

And at the end, he breaks down.

    "... I'm hurting!! ... You'll have to excuse me, I'm just very sad because I lost my brother ... I don't know what else to say right now, so I will close with I love you, Ryan. I have a lot of emotions swirling, but I want you to know I love you so very much."

Dunn was killed on impact after crashing his Porsche in Pennsylvania. He was driving at 130 mph and his blood alcohol level was at more than twice the legal limit. He was 34.

Knoxville, 40, and Dunn had been friends for more than 10 years.