The first part of ET's interview with Taylor Armstrong aired Tuesday night, and the Real Housewives of Beverly Hills star detailed his alleged abuse. She explained that photos of her with a black eye were the result of Russell punching her, and said she required surgery.

Taylor said Russell had abused her 20 or so times during their marriage, but despite the abuse, his suicide has been traumatic.

In the second part of the interview, airing Wednesday night, Taylor describes finding Russell's body (he hanged himself in mid-August), saying:

    "I'm sure a lot of people won't understand this … but I asked the emergency workers if I could go in and hug him before they took him away, but they wouldn't let me. I just felt like I needed to see him one last time, but they wouldn't let me."

The Bravo star also explains how she has reacted since. She says:

    "I'm now wearing his wedding ring and mine together. Right now I'm still doing anything I can to figure out how to get close to him. ... I still have the last shirt he wore before the night of, and sometimes I sit in my closet with it ..."