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Bethenny Frankel filed for divorce from Jason Hoppy last week, but the reality star/Skinnygirl mogul is already opening up (and bawling her eyes out) about their split.

Frankel made her first television appearance on The Ellen DeGeneres Show on Wednesday, and she told the talk show host, "Do I want to be doing this exact thing right now? No, but I can't just only be on reality TV and show everything when it's fairy princess, fairy tale and then not take my hits when I have to. I've kind of had the best worst year ever."

Frankel wed Hoppy, a pharmaceutical sales exec, in a televised ceremony in 2010, and she confirmed that they were separating on December 23. Last week she filed for divorce, and she is asking for primary custody of their two-year-old daughter Bryn, as well as child support.

Frankel added in between sobs, "I feel like a bit of a disappointment to all of you. And I feel like a failure." DeGeneres tried to comfort her, but she continued, "I feel like a failure ... I really put it out there. I wanted the fairytale. I thought I had it. And Bryn is my fairy tale ... This is excruciating, I have to say. The truth is, I wanted to rip the Band-Aid off so it could start to heal. This will obviously be better. I'm scared of the unknown future. You know everything, and one day you don't know. So I'm scared. I'm older."

So what's next? "I never thought I'd be a role model, but I think to some people I am, or have been. So this is an important time because it's about what I do next. How I handle myself now with grace, with dignity. This is the time now that matters."

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