Drew Barrymore covers the new issue of Marie Claire, and while she gushes about life as a mom, the interview takes a sober turn with the 38-year-old actress discusses her estrangement from her mother Jaid.

"Ugh, I mean, my relationship with my mom is so complicated," she tells the mag. "I've always been empathetic toward my mom, and I was even more so when I had a kid and we had a really amazing conversation about it. However, [becoming a mom] hasn't enabled me to lessen the distance. It's the hardest subject in my life. I've never just been angry with her. I've always felt guilt and empathy and utter sensitivity. But we cant really be in each other's lives at this point."

"When I was a kid, everything was so unplanned, my parents were so erratic, and my world was so inconsistent," she continued. "I was 14 when I moved into my own apartment. I was so scared. I didnt know anything. I didnt know you had to throw food out when it rotted in the fridge. I was convinced someone was going to crawl through my window. I would go to the Laundromat and sit there reading Anne Sexton, Sylvia Plath."

The former child star famously entered rehab at the age of 14, after which she successfully petitioned for juvenile emancipation from her parents. "I hated growing up alone. I hated it. I don't f*ck anyone over. My friends are the loves my life."

On a lighter note, Drew says she's thankful for the joy hubby Will Kopelman has brought into her life, and when asked about marrying into his family, she says, I didnt think I would ever get to experience that. This is so safe and positive and healthy because they have their values intact. It was huge for me. And thats what I want for my family.

So will the couple stop after two kids? I think Id like to have more," Drew says. "In the back of my head, Im already timing if I was to have another when that would occur.