Dec 10, 2013 02:15 PM
We can always count on Demi Lovato to be candid about her personal life, but when she went into the details of her drug use with Access Hollywood, we were completely shocked!
The 21-year-old star, who wrote her memoir Staying Strong: 365 Days a Year, chatted with Kit Hoover from the set of The X Factor on Monday and revealed that even after she had a sober coach she was using drugs all the time.
“I’m very, very good at manipulating people and that was something that I did in my disease, I would manipulate everyone around me. There were times I would just continue to lie, so that everything looked OK on the outside,” she admitted. Demi completed a three-month stint in rehab in November 2010, so it appears as though all of this happened before she sought treatment at an inpatient facility.
When it came to her cocaine addiction, she told the show:
- “Something I’ve never talked about before, but with my drug use I could hide it to where I would sneak drugs. I couldn’t go without 30 minutes to an hour without cocaine and I would bring it on airplanes. I would smuggle it basically and just wait until everyone in first class would go to sleep and I would do it right there. I’d sneak to the bathroom and I’d do it. That’s how difficult it got and that was even with somebody [with me], I had a sober companion, somebody who was watching me 24/7 and living with me [and] I was able to hide it from them as well.”
As far as her battle with alcoholism, she admits that it was just as bad:
- “I was going to the airport and I had a Sprite bottle just filled with vodka and it was just nine in the morning and I was throwing up in the car ... and this was just to get on a plane to go back to LA to the sober living house that I was staying at…I had all the help in the world, but I didn’t want it. When I hit that moment I was like, it’s no longer fun when you’re doing it alone. I’ve really never talked about this stuff before… I don’t know if I should be sharing this. I think at 19 years old, I had a moment where I was like, ‘Oh my God… that is alcoholic behavior. [It’s] no longer, I’m young and rebellious and out having fun, it was, wow, I’m one of those people…I gotta get my s*** together.'"
Demi also chatted about her eating disorder, and she revealed that it started at a very early age:
- “It was always there, but then I just acted on it at around 8 or 9 years old. I started overeating, compulsively overeating. I would bake cookies and then eat the whole pan. I went from doing that to being unhappy with my body. I went to just completely starving myself and that turned into throwing up and starving myself and it was just this crazy battle going on inside of me. It got really difficult [and] I would throw up and it would just be blood and it was something that I realized if I don’t stop this, I am going to die.”
Demi was also joined by her mom Dianna, who took some of the blame for the starlet's issues. “I suspected [she was using drugs]. It’s like any other parent, when you see things, when you see signs you don’t want to believe that’s what actually going on. So when they’re telling you that’s not what is going on… you want too badly to believe them and I think for a long time I was in denial,” she told Kit.