Jennifer Hudson On Family Murders: "It Was Surreal"

Speaking out for the first time about the brutal 2008 murders that took the lives of her mother, brother and nephew, Jennifer Hudson called the experience "surreal."

"It's all a blur, it was surreal. It was like I was outside of myself," she said in an interview that aired last night on VH1's Behind the Music: Jennifer Hudson.

She describes the self-imposed seclusion she went into following the horrible news of the triple murders: "For almost two weeks straight . . . [I was] inside one room with just family and friends coming in and out. I prayed when I'd get up in the morning and prayed before I laid down at night."

But having her son, David, has brought her some peace.

The 11-month-old "reminds me of my nephew," Hudson said. But she's also reminded of her mother in parenting David. "In so many ways I channel her because she was such a great mom."