Posted on Mon Sep 9, 2013 06:59 AM PDT
Wentworth Miller spoke at the Human Rights Campaign Dinner in Seattle on Saturday evening, and the 41-year-old actor revealed that when he was struggling with his sexuality at a young age, he tried to take his own life.
"The first time I tried to kill myself I was 15. I waited until my family went away for the family and I was alone in the house and I swallowed a bottle of pills," he told the audience. "I don't remember what happened over the next couple of days but I'm pretty sure come Monday morning I was on the bus back to school pretending everything was fine."
"Growing up I was a target. Speaking the right way, standing the right way, holding your wrist the right way. Every day was a test and there was a thousand ways to fail," he added. "A thousand ways to portray yourself to not live up to someone else's standards of what was accepted."
The former Prison Break star came out in August when he penned an open letter to the organizers of the St. Petersburg International Film Festival in Russia, stating that he could not attend an event in a country that has anti-gay laws.
Miller also admitted that he was nervous to come out early on in his career. "I had multiple opportunities to speak my truth, which is that I was gay, but I chose not to," he said. "I was out privately to family and friends -- publicly, I was not. I chose to lie -- when I thought about the possibility of coming out, how that might impact me and the career I worked so hard for, I was filled with fear."
We're glad he's speaking out now though! XO.
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